The Late-comer

There was a point where I had never realized that people like me deserve a dream. The genes of  procrastination is in me and I am never serious about executing a change.

I was not thinking of doing something when I had all the resources with me, not that I did not want to, but I never know that I had the chance to until it was too late for me to realize.

The calendar on the wall is fulled with remarks, time and resources are now the enemies. While I am blaming on the timing, shall I convinced myself that what happened to me is always the best for the moment? Shall I then wait and go with the flow? Must a late-comer accept the punishment when he has never meant to be? If thing happens when it has to be, does it mean that it is going to happen regardless of whatever incident in the middle of it?

If this is the case, why can't you just grant us with whatever we are going to get in the end? Of course you can, but I will then never appreciate what happiness is when I have never taste the contrary. While, if 'happiness' is the only thing in my life, I guess I will be bored to death. Yes, I am always self-contradictory, isn't life so too?

Isn't it funny that after you have gone round and round and reached some point, then only you realized that you can actually go from here to the point straightly if you have known and planned something earlier on, which you should have to. Yeah, only if you know it earlier which you wish you did. Forgiven or not, there is now no way back, moving forward is the only choice that you are left with. And, if wishes were horses, beggars would ride.

I'm moving, but left, or right now?

Whatever it is, I shall always take mom's advice of saving for the rainy day, and then only I have the discretion.

“我没有征服神山，而是神山应允了我一次的仰望……”

很多人成功登上一座山后都会说自己征服了某某山等的，不是不对，只是我个人认为或许以上那句比较贴切些。

这是年头上了神山后，队友晋豪哥哥写的一句话，由于太符合心里的感受了，所以一直收藏着。三个月前的旧地重游，让我感触更深，再次确定自己的渺小。

“人再好，也没有完美的，所以要包容每个出现在我生命里的人，就像大家谅解我一样；
山再高，也高不过草儿，所以永远不要嫉妒任何人，你有的就是对你最好的。”

这是这句话和这些事件带给我的启示，时不时看一看，提醒自己做人要谦卑。

Just nonsense

There was once, someone was quering and doubting about the purpose of writing blog. She is in a view that blogging is kind of showing off behaviour, close to psycho because a blogger can't wait to 'display' his/her life to the whole world, using her words, the blogger is begging for love from the reader though the wrting. This could be true, to a certain extent, everyone has a personal reason of blogging which offences no one, but I was pretty upset of receiving it directly from her mouth. However, ''Don't know so don't love'' applies. so no blame on her part.

This is true,a peach lover will never understand someone with serious-peach-phobia*; a non-diary keeper will not understand the reason of us keeping diary; and someone who do not love adventurous activities would never understand why are there so many rock-climbers, hikers, sky-divers etc.. A common question would usually be : ''Why do I spend to suffer myself?'' While for some, it could be all about the adrenaline. Likewise, and no offense, I can never understand people who keep posting on facebook about their activities, when I say activities I mean every single part of the activity. Is this kind of showing off to the world that you are doing something or are you simply making fun of the device? It could be either one depends on how you interprete it. But please blame no one when someone rob your house because a minute ago you just told the world that your house is not occupied in a particular date and time.

Sharing is good, and for your information, I do post, a lot too, but not without filtered, and I don't want to cause wall polution with all those unhealthy information. Of course, it depends on you to decide what the unhealthy is. I blog too, I do simply for the sake of it, this is my own way of expressing myself and sharing, must I make a report to you? No one can force you to do something if you really don't want to, so don't read any of the blog out here when you don't know how to appreciate it or you think you would get irritated by it. Applying your words here, ''don't expect me to follow every single facebook post of you '', you are not expected to go with my flow either. It's true that a blogger expects reader, unfortunately the non-sincere one is not to be included.

What I learn is that don't judge when you don't know, especially with your you-think-you-are-smart-and-know-it-all kind of tone. If you want me to respect you, respect first. I don't know you like how you never know me. There is no right or wrong. We just don't get it.


P/s: Intelligence people ignore, and I guess I am never intelligent.



*youtube: funning peach phobia