我喜欢独处，因为这时候的我思绪天马行空、可以和自己对话、怀念过去的一切、幻想未来的自己、做我想做的事情、做自己。
这个时候也是灵感来得最多最快的时候，让我可以update blog，或者写写日记。你没有看错，除了这里，我还有在笔记本上写日记的习惯，从前的我就很喜欢写日记，而且是手写的。可能有些人想说都什么年代了还手写。比起科技代手，我更钟情于手写。手写带来的成就感是无法形容的，我可以用我要的方式和速度一笔一画的写或者应该说画（鬼画符的画）。我特别喜欢中国字，因为每一笔、每一画都有它的意义。每每看回那笔迹时，中文字的带来的满足感往往都大于ABC的。更胜的是，当指尖触碰到那笔迹时，我能够回想当下写那篇文章的我是怀着怎么样的心情，有时候还可以摸到泪水造成的“凹凸不平”呢 （呵呵） 。你说，是不是很特别?
中国历史和中华文化很伟大，但是我最爱的还是我们的马来西亚。如果不以个人利益和政治为前提，或许今天的我们会更好。以前和外国网友谈起我的国家，他们大部分都不知道马来西亚的地理位置，有的更从来没听过马来西亚这个国家，但是我依然很proud的跟他们说了又说：“I am from Malaysia.” 因为我坚信有一天，全世界都会认识我们的国家，马来西亚（当然，不是以丑闻为主）。
今天，拿督李宗伟让马来西亚更接近世界，也让不同肤色的我们坐在体育馆、电视机前、或者mamak档一起为同一个目标欢呼。这时候大家不分你我，因为我们都是马来西亚人。
另一边厢，有人说黄明志Namewee煽动种族和宗教情绪，挑拨政治敏感话题，可能导致人民分裂，危害国家安全；我却认为他只是把实况用他的方式呈现出来，他没有要挑拨任何人，他只是让我们有宣泄压抑已久的情绪的空间和管道。有人说这有点极端，看你怎么想，还是这是外国人讲的‘this is just the last nail in the coffin’？
或许在敏感时期，我们能做的就是不要恶化情况，但是你认为一个成熟的人民会那么容易被他那一首歌影响吗？我承认，那首歌的确很娱人娱己，但这是两回事，不是吗？小时候，妈妈和老师不是说做错事要勇于承认，不要把责任推给别人，然后要反省、要改过自新吗？怎么大人们都不听话的?
几年过去了，这件事或许不再是大家饭后闲聊的话题，但是，问题根源一直存在，只是借用了其他管道和话题延伸下去。问题不会有不存在的那天，能做的只是不让它恶化，再用正确的方式慢慢改善。
我知道，你和我一样，我们都爱我们的国家，但是，马来西亚，你爱我们吗？
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Friday, April 20, 2012
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Home-foods
Went back home days ago and had a homemade
'Bak Kut Teh' *
by mum...
It's more than enough to bring away my sorrow.
谢谢你 妈妈
Friday, April 13, 2012
Happy Birthday Chai Hong
Pretty sure that I must had done a lot of good things in my past life so that the good karma thingy is here for me no matter how negative I'm ( Or, most probably that my parents 'transfered' theirs to me, yes, MUST BE ! ).
I feel good when people treat me well, but at the same times I feel guilty and shameful, as I don't think that I deserve that much. Somehow I'm just too selfish to be good.
Keep reminding myself to appreciate what I have and never take all these for granted. Instead, I'm gonna put some efforts with everyone around me, it's never too late to improve I believe.
I'm a nobody, with limited capability and time, but I still hoping that what I'm doing benefits you one day. After all, I never doubt about us being here for each other, for a reason.
So, a big thank you to you for being here for me, yes, you, you, you and you. I love you.
By the way, wish myself Happy Birthday ! Hopefully this is not just an older me, but a more mature and well-rounded me =)
I feel good when people treat me well, but at the same times I feel guilty and shameful, as I don't think that I deserve that much. Somehow I'm just too selfish to be good.
Keep reminding myself to appreciate what I have and never take all these for granted. Instead, I'm gonna put some efforts with everyone around me, it's never too late to improve I believe.
I'm a nobody, with limited capability and time, but I still hoping that what I'm doing benefits you one day. After all, I never doubt about us being here for each other, for a reason.
So, a big thank you to you for being here for me, yes, you, you, you and you. I love you.
By the way, wish myself Happy Birthday ! Hopefully this is not just an older me, but a more mature and well-rounded me =)
*PaPa, borrowed your birthday cake yea ;D
p/s: My biggest wishes is of course for PaPa & MaMa,
wish you stay HEALTHY & HAPPY always!
wish you stay HEALTHY & HAPPY always!
For you & I, DREAMS COME TRUE !
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
I need a change
When things happen in a constant negative manner, I know for a long time that something is wrong with me... I just don't have the gut to face it.
p/s: Doggie, is this how you usually look like, or, are you feeling down?
Saturday, April 7, 2012
Insider or Outsider
Sometimes I just can't stop wondering if I need to be an outsider so to allow myself to present the true story of the insider at the expense of friendships... like Dan Humphrey in the Gossip Girl......
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
A little chapter of my life
There is so many things in life that we wish to accomplish and yet not everyone manage to do it all when we are capable of. Journey to the Mount Kinabalu, at least for me, an indication of another beginning of me doing something that I really want and love to. Sometimes, things go better when you least expected it.
I love Mother Nature more than I could think of, even though I grown up in a kampung (small village). I was once being told that I don't appreciate the nature because I'm with the nature. 'Mr. Know it all', that's who you think I am, but I'm who I think I am. I appreciate your thoughts and critics, but after all, who are you to judge me. I don't have to show you my love towards anything, while maybe people these days only see what they want to see, and only believe what they want to believe.
To put it another way round, someone may post whatever he/she likes on Facebook, but that's only part of his/her life. It's too bad that majority of the people would judge him according to those posts, as in it's a whole life of him/her. Come on people, everyone of us has the right and freedom to share and not to, why must I being who you want me to be, rather than who I am?! You can direct me to take picture of this and that which I have no interest to but for your favour, maybe mine as well because I might learn, but please not with your judgemental words of "Oh God, you people have no sense at all..." sort of. Remember that if everyone has the same interest, same sense and same set of mind, then what's the point of you keep telling the world that you are you, and me is me?
...well...can't stop wondering why am I wasting so much time on those negative thoughts and actions when the world out there is just so worth of my life, the worst thing is I realized it and did nothing to change.
The truth is, I'm a very simple person. Any sight of the nature is breathtaking enough to overwhelm my senses. Yes, any sight of it, I'm just so easily being satisfied. Or I should say that, the Mother Nature is just so incredible, every part of it is perfect in its own sense and everything is again perfectly inter-related. Oh man, now I miss the time I was studying Biology in the Secondary School and Form 6...well, not just now, I always do. It benefits me, throughout my whole life I dare to say.
If you think that I'm having a sudden fancy towards the nature because of the trip to the Mount Kinabalu, then I'll prove you wrong. This trip is, after all a platform for me to express myself once and again. Love doesn't just grow or lapsed.
Hopefully, the day that I have to choose between the nature and the developed will never come (in fact it's happenning everyday around me). To a certain extent, I admit that I need them both. Worst comes to worst, I'll die with the nature. But then, who am I to make the decision? At the end of the day, it's all about natural selection.
Last but not least, I'm grateful towards EVERYONE that I have met during this trip, which is too many of them to name of. Without your presences and helping hands, I'm no way here. Thank you, from me whole-heartedly.
I love Mother Nature more than I could think of, even though I grown up in a kampung (small village). I was once being told that I don't appreciate the nature because I'm with the nature. 'Mr. Know it all', that's who you think I am, but I'm who I think I am. I appreciate your thoughts and critics, but after all, who are you to judge me. I don't have to show you my love towards anything, while maybe people these days only see what they want to see, and only believe what they want to believe.
To put it another way round, someone may post whatever he/she likes on Facebook, but that's only part of his/her life. It's too bad that majority of the people would judge him according to those posts, as in it's a whole life of him/her. Come on people, everyone of us has the right and freedom to share and not to, why must I being who you want me to be, rather than who I am?! You can direct me to take picture of this and that which I have no interest to but for your favour, maybe mine as well because I might learn, but please not with your judgemental words of "Oh God, you people have no sense at all..." sort of. Remember that if everyone has the same interest, same sense and same set of mind, then what's the point of you keep telling the world that you are you, and me is me?
...well...can't stop wondering why am I wasting so much time on those negative thoughts and actions when the world out there is just so worth of my life, the worst thing is I realized it and did nothing to change.
The truth is, I'm a very simple person. Any sight of the nature is breathtaking enough to overwhelm my senses. Yes, any sight of it, I'm just so easily being satisfied. Or I should say that, the Mother Nature is just so incredible, every part of it is perfect in its own sense and everything is again perfectly inter-related. Oh man, now I miss the time I was studying Biology in the Secondary School and Form 6...well, not just now, I always do. It benefits me, throughout my whole life I dare to say.
If you think that I'm having a sudden fancy towards the nature because of the trip to the Mount Kinabalu, then I'll prove you wrong. This trip is, after all a platform for me to express myself once and again. Love doesn't just grow or lapsed.
Hopefully, the day that I have to choose between the nature and the developed will never come (in fact it's happenning everyday around me). To a certain extent, I admit that I need them both. Worst comes to worst, I'll die with the nature. But then, who am I to make the decision? At the end of the day, it's all about natural selection.
Last but not least, I'm grateful towards EVERYONE that I have met during this trip, which is too many of them to name of. Without your presences and helping hands, I'm no way here. Thank you, from me whole-heartedly.
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