Done with my first solo backpack trip to Bangkok, Thailand.

Except the first day I was on hiking shoes, the local Thai people that I have met during the next two days all think that I am genuinely a Thai, with no exception, motorbike drivers, tuk-tuk driver, street vendors, 7-11 receptionists, acquaintances, someone in the airport even asked if I can speak Thai language for translation purpose I guess. These people spoke with me with local Thai language and didn't believe it when I have declared that I am not a local. This is funny!

Based on my previous not-so-pleasant experience in HatYai, it was difficult for me to make this decision to visit this country again, especially by myself. I'm thankful for all everything that I have encountered. Be it good or not-so-good one. At least now I am leaving with a "will-be-back-soon" kind of mood.

Travelling from somewhere I am bored of to a place that someone are bored with, I have seen things so differently from what we usually get to know from the media and friends and family. This is a precious experience, at least to my own self.

后续（二）

回头想想，这么一点痛就足以让我呼天唤地、这个不行、那个也不能的了，真不敢想象平日爸妈是怎么撑过来的。

幼年时期开始做苦工累积而来的手尾全于疼痛的形式呈现于父母身体各个部位。明知道止痛药是治标不治本，而且对身体的副作用也大，却一次又一次的吞进肚里，凑不凑效也不理了，吃了继续干活儿，只因有做就有的吃，不做，孩子们就得饿肚子。

平日爸妈嘴里喊身体哪个 部位疼时，很惭愧的说我总是漠不关心，而在他们说要吃止痛药时我也只是会口头上劝他们不吃比较好。在这次的经历后，我才发现，不吃真的没有比较好。而向来坚持能不吃药就不吃药的我竟然在出雨崩的那天在八个小时内吞了四颗止痛药。天哪！是四颗耶！真对不起我的身体。

药效帮忙舒缓一些疼痛感，但是不持久。或许大家心里会问说“真的有那么疼吗？还是你有公主病啊！”我只能说当初我听到爸妈说身体哪个部位疼时也这么想过……刀没有割在你手上，你当然不觉什么。

后续 （一）

离上一段旅程已经有两个月的时间了，右脚膝盖的痛虽有些好转，但似乎是不能根治了，时不时都会有些酸疼的感觉。

记得在行程的第四天，脚开始出现状况。刚开始不敢告诉友人担心延误行程，在可以忍受的范围下尽量不提也不表现出来。心里清楚明白说，友人定会劝阻我不参与徒步好歇着的。

刚开始，我坚持参与，心里却直担心大家会为了我而拖慢行程。一直唤叫疼痛也不是办法，牙根咬紧心里想说无论如何我一定要上到神瀑去。

走了一段距离，被远远的抛在后头，知道不能再逞强了，停下来告诉友人说“……我要骑骡子”。或许是出于好胜心，或许是不想让自己留有一丝遗憾。虽然没有用双脚完成全程已是遗点一个，但是我得到了另一种体验--我竟然骑着骡子在山间游走。回程时，骡子夫更是让我和骡子自由行而自己在后头做事。他是对我有信心，还是对他从小养大的骡子有信心啊，答案不言而喻。

接下来的行程，脚伤没有好转情况还恶化了。休息没有改善脚伤，每每一伸长腿的动作就足以让人飙泪。从雨崩出来的那段路，要不是有领队的搀扶、帮忙拎背包还有摩多车，真不知几点才出得来。友人借用的登山仗也被我给用到歪了，心里愧疚的很。

记得有那么几段路程，脚伤加上心里压力，泪水好几次忍不住飙了出来，当时好想抱着一个人哭却不可以。把外套塞进嘴里咬紧，偷偷拭擦眼泪，继续硬撑着。眼看天色已暗，多余的停留和抱怨是不受欢迎的，只好苦中作乐。

吃饭

一起吃饭，对于我来说是一个意义非常重大的动作。

十天远行，是直今为止和亲人以外的人在家以外的地方一起生活最长的记录（在这之前的记录是八天）。在这十天里，一起经历生活的大事、琐碎的事，吃饭、睡觉、找厕所、为了大小事情做决定，为了减少意见不合，尽量沉默，尽量配合，还有很多很多……

这十天里，我看到听到学到很多，感恩的更是不少。我看到，突发事件时，大家的相互体谅，冷静和成熟的应对手法。我看到，可以为了对方而牺牲自己利益的队友。我看到，不自私、不计较、不计前嫌的队友。我看得最清楚的其实是自己的渺小。

这十天里其中最让我期待的是大家坐下来一起用餐的画面。大家坐在一起，不管菜色有啥，只要是能吃的都行，都会吃得干干净净的。一边夹饭菜，心里一边想说，这画面是多么的和谐、多么的温馨啊，嘴角不知觉的跟着上扬。

人家说，百年修得同船渡，千年修得共枕眠，这一起同桌完整的用完一餐又一餐的情分究竟是修了多少年才得来的，这该是多么值得珍惜的缘分啊。以前我总是对一起吃饭的人这么说，现在我都把这些话儿收在心里，毕竟不是每个人都能够体会这种情结。

 

在香格里拉的这一餐因为当时想家了心情低落没参与。

本地买的中国莲藕和在中国本身吃得莲藕 味道大不同，但一样爽脆。

一起用膳是件多么幸福的事啊~

老实说，这十天里我们坐着一起吃饭的次数还多过我们家一年里全家一起吃饭的次数。很惭愧的说，我很常在家，但是全家一起吃饭的场景一年只得见一次，而且半小时内解决。真该反省反省。

游·感

机缘巧合下，和一班通情达理的友人去了中国云南，雨崩。

筹备过程中心里十分清楚，这绝非一次浪漫休闲之旅。体验的当儿更是完全明白这实实在在是一次涤荡心灵的艰苦历程，说是户外自虐线路更是一点也不为过。当然，我自认为的苦走，若与藏民虔诚的信仰相比，还是另人汗颜。

户外徒步时间长，除了体力，精神的支撑点完全不可被忽视。尤其对于我这种意志本来就不坚定的人来说，精神支撑可以是致命点。过往的经验，我嘴里总会念着“阿弥陀佛”之类的。而这一次，我心无杂念的直念着“爸妈身体健康，我身体健康”。想说在这个神圣的净土上可以心想事成。那一刻，心里非常强大。当然，有时一下慌神会把身边的人和风景给忘了，直到下一秒的大口喘气声才给回过神来。有时候，很好奇同行的人们在同一时刻，心里想着什么，还是什么也没想，很单纯的在享受过程？

比起以往，这趟旅程相机派上用场的机率不高，原因有几：一，累得搬不动相机了；二，为了尊重看到的人事物； 三，不为了拍而拍； 最重要的是，想用“心”真诚的体会和感受一切，因为心里明白，相机能记录的只是瞬间而不是全部，那种刻骨铭心，慑人心魄的现场感更是相机无法体现的。想用照片永恒的保留美景，但往往心有余而力不足，只好透过双眼和心把一切都记下，不让它从心里消失，即是永恒。纵使哪天不知不觉地忘了，它渗透到我灵魂里的点仍不可被忽视，谁敢说我们此时此刻的一举一动，甚至是一个表情和眼神不是以往经历一切所累积的成果。

感恩我拥有的一切，健康的体魄、健全的四肢、敏锐的感官、明亮的双眼、还有一颗自由的心。

旅行，需要理由？

有人说要一生不后悔至少得尝试说走就走的旅行。我，已经不晓得说走就走Ｎ次了。说我任性？我不否认。所以我的生活虽说不上毫无规划，但就是一踏糊涂，乱七八糟的，是代价吧！我就是那么没出息……对不起爸爸妈妈。
话说回头，旅行真的需要长期规划吗？对有些人来说，是！对有些长途的旅程来说，未必不是。

如果哪一天我再也不能说走就走，那一定是我还存不够旅费。
可请别忘了，能说走就走不代表我有多余的钱。
只是觉得穷有穷的旅行方式，别人能，为什么我不能？一旦我做了出发的决定，这旅程还有更艰难的时刻吗？

这样说好了，我就是只不能没有水的鱼、不能没有天空的鸟、不能没有氧气的生物，无须太多准备功夫，时机来了，要走就走，想走就走，就算哪天我的人身没走，我的心也未必还在。当然，时机是自己说了算的，嘻嘻！

别人是再穷不能穷教育，我家是再穷不能穷旅行。妈妈说，怎样都要去见识见识，看人家怎样吃饭，看人家怎样走路，看人家怎样说话……总有我要学习的。以前爸爸妈妈常常带我们这走那走，现在他们老人家这痛那痛的，站久点都不行，还怎么去走呢？没关系，我相信让我带你们出走的那天一定会到来的。谢谢你们！

A little chapter of my life

There is so many things in life that we wish to accomplish and yet not everyone manage to do it all when we are capable of. Journey to the Mount Kinabalu, at least for me, an indication of another beginning of me doing something that I really want and love to. Sometimes, things go better when you least expected it.

I love Mother Nature more than I could think of, even though I grown up in a kampung (small village). I was once being told that I don't appreciate the nature because I'm with the nature. 'Mr. Know it all', that's who you think I am, but I'm who I think I am. I appreciate your thoughts and critics, but after all, who are you to judge me. I don't have to show you my love towards anything, while maybe people these days only see what they want to see, and only believe what they want to believe.

To put it another way round, someone may post whatever he/she likes on Facebook, but that's only part of his/her life. It's too bad that majority of the people would judge him according to those posts, as in it's a whole life of him/her. Come on people, everyone of us has the right and freedom to share and not to, why must I being who you want me to be, rather than who I am?! You can direct me to take picture of this and that which I have no interest to but for your favour, maybe mine as well because I might learn, but  please not with your judgemental words of "Oh God, you people have no sense at all..." sort of. Remember that if everyone has the same interest, same sense and same set of mind, then what's the point of you keep telling the world that you are you, and me is me?

...well...can't stop wondering why am I wasting so much time on those negative thoughts and actions when the world out there is just so worth of my life, the worst thing is I realized it and did nothing to change.

The truth is, I'm a very simple person. Any sight of the nature is breathtaking enough to overwhelm my senses. Yes, any sight of it, I'm just so easily being satisfied. Or I should say that, the Mother Nature is just so incredible, every part of it is perfect in its own sense and everything is again perfectly inter-related. Oh man, now I miss the time I was studying Biology in the Secondary School and Form 6...well, not just now, I always do. It benefits me, throughout my whole life I dare to say.

If you think that I'm having a sudden fancy towards the nature because of the trip to the Mount Kinabalu, then I'll prove you wrong. This trip is, after all a platform for me to express myself once and again. Love doesn't just grow or lapsed.

Hopefully, the day that I have to choose between the nature and the developed will never come (in fact it's happenning everyday around me). To a certain extent, I admit that I need them both. Worst comes to worst, I'll die with the nature. But then, who am I to make the decision? At the end of the day, it's all about natural selection.

Last but not least, I'm grateful towards EVERYONE that I have met during this trip, which is too many of them to name of. Without your presences and helping hands, I'm no way here. Thank you, from me whole-heartedly.