莲花

红花因绿叶而美丽，

明月因清风而深情，

偶尔不做主角也无妨。

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Home-foods

Went back home days ago and had a homemade

'Bak Kut Teh' *

by mum... 

It's more than enough to bring away my sorrow. 

                                  谢谢你 妈妈

*http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bak_kut_teh

Happy Birthday Chai Hong

Pretty sure that I must had done a lot of good things in my past life so that the good karma thingy is here for me no matter how negative I'm ( Or, most probably that my parents 'transfered' theirs to me, yes, MUST BE ! ).

I feel good when people treat me well, but at the same times I feel guilty and shameful, as I don't think that I deserve that much. Somehow I'm just too selfish to be good.

Keep reminding myself to appreciate what I have and never take all these for granted. Instead, I'm gonna put some efforts with everyone around me, it's never too late to improve I believe.

I'm a nobody, with limited capability and time, but I still hoping that what I'm doing benefits you one day. After all, I never doubt about us being here for each other, for a reason.

So, a big thank you to you for being here for me, yes, you, you, you and you. I love you.

By the way, wish myself Happy Birthday ! Hopefully this is not just an older me, but a more mature and well-rounded me =)

*PaPa, borrowed your birthday cake yea ;D

p/s: My biggest wishes is of course for PaPa & MaMa,
        wish you stay HEALTHY & HAPPY always!

       For you & I, DREAMS COME TRUE !

 

 

I need a change

When things happen in a constant negative manner, I know for a long time that something is wrong with me... I just don't have the gut to face it.

p/s: Doggie, is this how you usually look like, or, are you feeling down?



Insider or Outsider

Sometimes I just can't stop wondering if I need to be an outsider so to allow myself to present the true story of the insider at the expense of friendships... like Dan Humphrey in the Gossip Girl...... 

A little chapter of my life

There is so many things in life that we wish to accomplish and yet not everyone manage to do it all when we are capable of. Journey to the Mount Kinabalu, at least for me, an indication of another beginning of me doing something that I really want and love to. Sometimes, things go better when you least expected it.

I love Mother Nature more than I could think of, even though I grown up in a kampung (small village). I was once being told that I don't appreciate the nature because I'm with the nature. 'Mr. Know it all', that's who you think I am, but I'm who I think I am. I appreciate your thoughts and critics, but after all, who are you to judge me. I don't have to show you my love towards anything, while maybe people these days only see what they want to see, and only believe what they want to believe.

To put it another way round, someone may post whatever he/she likes on Facebook, but that's only part of his/her life. It's too bad that majority of the people would judge him according to those posts, as in it's a whole life of him/her. Come on people, everyone of us has the right and freedom to share and not to, why must I being who you want me to be, rather than who I am?! You can direct me to take picture of this and that which I have no interest to but for your favour, maybe mine as well because I might learn, but  please not with your judgemental words of "Oh God, you people have no sense at all..." sort of. Remember that if everyone has the same interest, same sense and same set of mind, then what's the point of you keep telling the world that you are you, and me is me?

...well...can't stop wondering why am I wasting so much time on those negative thoughts and actions when the world out there is just so worth of my life, the worst thing is I realized it and did nothing to change.

The truth is, I'm a very simple person. Any sight of the nature is breathtaking enough to overwhelm my senses. Yes, any sight of it, I'm just so easily being satisfied. Or I should say that, the Mother Nature is just so incredible, every part of it is perfect in its own sense and everything is again perfectly inter-related. Oh man, now I miss the time I was studying Biology in the Secondary School and Form 6...well, not just now, I always do. It benefits me, throughout my whole life I dare to say.

If you think that I'm having a sudden fancy towards the nature because of the trip to the Mount Kinabalu, then I'll prove you wrong. This trip is, after all a platform for me to express myself once and again. Love doesn't just grow or lapsed.

Hopefully, the day that I have to choose between the nature and the developed will never come (in fact it's happenning everyday around me). To a certain extent, I admit that I need them both. Worst comes to worst, I'll die with the nature. But then, who am I to make the decision? At the end of the day, it's all about natural selection.

Last but not least, I'm grateful towards EVERYONE that I have met during this trip, which is too many of them to name of. Without your presences and helping hands, I'm no way here. Thank you, from me whole-heartedly.

这个世界其实很美好

朋友误以为上一篇文章是出于我笔下，担心我发生了什么事。
想对她说放心，我不是个好学生也没有上过明星学校，所以不用担心。那只是一篇收藏了好几年的剪报，不久前不小心从笔记本里掉了出来就拿来分享，希望有激励的作用。


我承认“自杀”这个念头曾经无数次的浮现在脑海里，有好几次拿着爸爸的剃胡须刀片在手腕和身上“比手划脚”的，却没有划下去的勇气，还想象说拿个桶来装血才不至于‘太早’被发现而死不成。现在的我其实还蛮感激当时的懦弱，不然我真的会错过很多美好的事情。


幸庆那已经是步入十九岁以前的事了。现在的我忙与盲到没时间去想它，更何况每一分每一秒钟的我们都在接近死亡，我还急什么啊！当然，最重要的是，还有很多我想完成的事情。虽然我没有别人的胸怀大志，也不是来拯救地球的超人，但是我一样可以拥有独自美好的平凡，毕竟Steve Jobs只有一个，就算是复制也是需要代价的，不是吗？


是社会无形的压力把你逼到自杀的地步，抑或是你选择的？其实只要你不要像我一样常常把事情“想埋一边”（广东话），这个世界也可以很美好，真的，只要你我愿意。

p/s:
心里还是很感激那位朋友的关心，虽然我们认识不久，她总是能让人感动。
像上次跟她道谢她有份送的生日礼物，她回说:''……I should thx you bcos I get a friend" 之类的，感慨自己没有她一半的善良。